I learnt two things today

or rather i was reminded of a life I had thought i'd never return to, anyway, but tonight I broke my iceburg lettuce diet. I kinda broke it earlier in the week when i deep fried some chicken I picked up, I ate because of the m**chies, but the memory makes me want to puke. I'm really off meat.


But tonight, while eyeing my daughters pumpkin cubes in the freezer, I found those steaks that I had cooked for the yingyang after her lawyer asked to try reconciliation for the sake of my daughter before going the extreme other way. (read that loud in one breath, I be comma-phobic)

Well, my young friend had picked up some american mild pepper sauce, the kind you can use as a base to make real sauce, and real sauce was born tonight. two dips infact, blended some mushrooms and A1 steak sauce and then the pepper dip.
BLISS!!!.....................................................MUDDERFADDA

Dready, pure bliss, i musta been hungry, the whole house smells wonderfully of every ingredient, especially the fried onions.

Anyway. i'm sure there was something depressing I wanted to vent about.


On a note thats not depressing, the wonderful support that my lifelong sweetheart has so naturally given me over the last two years have kept me sane, you've kept me reminded of my true selve just by your familiarity. Though the two of us have never been technically sane, especially when we meet face to face, skin to skin, and we sweat, while time flies.

Those steaks were heaven on earth.

Why didn't I marry you instead.

Sixteen years ago I didn't realise that I had already met the right one, I've been actually rating everyone else against you, and the freakiest freaks can't match up. I pretended you were simply unavailable. Different world syndrome.

Sorry.

When you're ready to give it all up you can join me where ever I am, but do it before we turn to geriatric statistics.